I guess I was warned that it would end
Like this in silence.
I guess I should have known childhood friendships never survive
The teenage years.
And I wish I could tell you.
You are so much more than
You give yourself credit for.

Chorus.

You say your moving to California
That everything you've ever built is crushed
You say that its all over now.
That you are not worth my time.
Anymore.
Anymore.

I guess I was aware you were hitting rock bottom.
Like this with a smile on your face.
Who would have guessed?
I guess I should…

If I could say what I wanted that night.
I would have.
You were yelling so loud, my ears were burning.
You were pushing me around so much, my head was dizzy.
If I could say what I wanted that night.
I would have.
I would have.

Chorus.

Now, you want to come with your apology
And try to mend a heart that's shattered.
I am so weak, I'm afraid to face you on my own.
I am so weak, I'm afraid to face you on my own.
I hate you.
I hate you.

If I could have ran away…

I have become so used to living this way.
Its easier to pretend then, really live.
Really live what you are.
So, I place on my mask and set my goals
I am ready for failure
Are you?
I have become so crippled by all the tricks of the magicians
With their twisted smiles
With their twisted minds
Trying to gain what they desire
All my strength
All my strength

Chorus.

I already know how this works
No need to explain
I already know how this works
No need to portray
Your aim
I can already play.

I have become…

We all have something to be afraid of
The closet door thats never quite shut all the way
And all those childhood dreams were crushed
By the fear of being alone
Alone.

Chorus.

Now, is the time to rewrite the script
Start over and erase all the things
We fear.
We fear.

We all need somewhere to be consoled
In our mother's arms; just to be loved again
And all those reckless teenage years were wasted
By the fear of our damn imperfections
Imperfections

Chorus
Now, is the time to rewrite the script
Start over and erase all the things…

We have never met yet, I feel like I have known you for centuries
And you make me smile when, old memories begin to haunt me….
We have never touched yet, I feel you lingering on my skin
And you make me laugh when, there's nothing humorous….
We have never spoken, I have never heard your voice, yet, I know you are so real, flesh and blood

Chorus.

I don't need proof
I know you are real, more real than I envision you
I can picture you in my dreams
All the emotions you have given me bursting at the…

Why are you pitying me with your untruthful compassion?
I can tell truly that you don't really care
That I sit here and cry every night
And your selfishness is shocking
How can you stand to witness me like this?

Chorus.

And if you ask me what I cry for.. ( slight pause)
I wouldn't hesitate to tell you
I cry for.
All the times you hurt me with your hands
The scars remain etched on my skin
I cry for.
All the times you screamed at me with your piercing words
they are tattoos of unwanted memories

Why are…

I have been searching for myself
Among these memories
That have been shifted and misplaced so well…
Inside my mind..
I have been praying for myself
Above the heaviness weighing my soul down
Into a pit of helplessness

Chorus…
I am desperate to hear your call for me
Your call for me
I am yearning for your Love
For your Love
I am weeping for your Forgiveness
Your forgiveness
Of my sins, hiding inside me
Deliver me to Your Light
Take me to Your Light

I have been scurrying around this road for centuries
trying to piece the map back…

You have been playing this game with my heart for awhile….
Emotions seem to be growing stronger every second
When, the clock ticks, feel like the days are longer…..
Struck by your shady lies
In between the lovely poetic lines
You recite so carefully
As if you could break me apart by, simply laying your greedy eyes
On my body…

Chorus…

Your love was never real
Your love was never real
You are nothing to me
You are nothing to me
You are not existent
You are not existent
Only a figment of my imagination

You are the master of…

Looking out the window, days pass by and I sit here clueless
Clueless on how to pick up the scattering pieces of my heart
That seem so breakable, easier to fall apart…..
Looking through the window, hours drag on and I sit here lost
Lost to how I suddenly got myself into this
Web of sadness..

Chorus

and all i can feel is emptiness,
the feeling of nothing at all
and all i can feel is emptiness
the feeling of nothing at all
and all i can feel is emptiness
the feeling of….nothing at all

tears falling without meaning
how…

i sat here in my bed, raveled up in my sheets
you dried my tears with your bare hands
and promised you would never leave
i looked into your eyes hoping that i would find
something to hold us together
we were falling apart at the seams
too afraid to close our eyes and dream
of the future that lay ahead

you sat here in my bed, your arms around me
you looked into my eyes scanning them, hoping you would find something to hold us together
we were falling apart at the seams
and you were too afraid to…