måndag 10 Jan 2011, 12:12

Well here I am, once again writting stuff that no one reads but my best friend and lol myself. But like if I cared, the point of all of this is to take everything out, feel a bit clean with all the shit I have inside.

Lately things have changed, I've changed, I want to be different and I'm going to be different, this 2011 I'm going back to the sXe, no addictions and well gotta say I had a big addiction last year….her.

I've been trying to control myself, to let her slip away, to not think about her and just forget, I still have her added in fb, in msn..I still think a lot about her, hurts as fuck 'cus I know she doesn't about me, she is happy, just like she worte on her status refering to her relationship, her engagment…"One step closer".
So am I, one step closer, one step closer to kill the feeling, to kill the being sensitive. To stop using that, that people call "heart".

I've been listening again one of my favorite singers of all time, specially a song that I used to listen when I was in junior high, No Regrets. That song is just so strong, just the lyrics fit my moment, fit my life, fit my feelings, my thoughts, the pain, the sorrow, but hey! No regrets, they don't work. No regrets now, they only hurt!

I don't regret about anything, 'cus all I did was when I felt like it, when I wanted and cus I wnated, cus I loved her and sadly and foolishly I still do, but it is dying in a way, I know she wil always be there in my mind, a part of me, but I'm buring my feelings for her deep inside me.

I guess the love we once had it's officialy…dead.